released August 22, 2013
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- Track Name: kansas
i lost myself in the middle of summer. i went outside and stood taller than the trees. i stared back east, i couldn't blink, and i only saw you. i want the feeling to fade out but it just seems to last. it settles like a new tooth and feels so awful. i want you to be around, so when i start coming down you'll make me feel a little better. i lost myself in the middle of summer. i walked up the steps and into a lucid dream. i felt the heat, i felt the ache, and i only saw you.
- Track Name: close 2 u
i wanna get close to you, but i don't know how to not get nervous when you walk into the room. we're hanging out on your porch, and words just sort of fall out of my mouth and gather in a pile on the floor. dead weight in the deepest pool, i'm looking for something to sink into. trying to fade into blue. this is the best that i can do, but i'll try a little harder for you. i wanna get close to you, but i don't know how to not get nervous when you walk into the room. just humming the same three songs, and i've been out of it for so long i'm not sure what it is anymore.
- Track Name: see me around
see me around, staring at pictures and making all the colors run past your house. it's still close, but it used to be closer. i found mine, it was hidden in a little box underneath my bed. when you find yours, maybe we can talk about getting together. when the seasons change, and it gets colder, will i drag you down? or will you come by and try to pull me out? see me around, staring at pictures and making all the colors run. i passed your house-it's still close, but it was a lot closer. three years since, i feel the weight of it pull me down again. what's the use? will you look at my face and tell me if i'm bleeding? when the seasons change, we talk about leaving. i start to blend in and lose myself. when the seasons change, and it gets colder, will i drag you down? or will you come by and try to pull me out?
- Track Name: graveyard
let's go take a walk in the graveyard. i used to hold my breath when i walked here. now i swing and climb on the tombstones. i dug a grave and lied down in it. ghosts try to pull you into the past when you sit at home and ask them 'am i dead?' just come back from the dead, do something, and mean it. scene change always seems to happen at night. fade-in to a broken street light. a distant figure with hands in his pockets. my whole life, i've never even felt half-right.
- Track Name: last one to leave
i'm the first one to show up uninvited and the last one to leave. you know i haven't got anyplace else to be. how long has it been since i was green? pull me out of the day-to-day in this scene. it takes so long to find something true. i'll dust out an empty space and hold it for you. i'm the last one to show up when i'm wanted and the first one to leave.
- Track Name: swirl
you were the reason i went to school. you wrote my name down on your shoe, but then it washed off with the first rain and you forgot my name. always driving around with both feet, blowing through all the stop signs on my street. you dropped me off and then everything changed, and you forgot my name.